Being the descendant of slaves gives you a clear sense of perspective. I already know that my anxiety sometimes leads me to have a disproportionate reaction to certain things, but I wasn’t overreacting yesterday when my new tablet shut off unexpectedly and I lost FOUR days of writing. That’s almost 4000 words! I managed to write 400 words last night (I’m trying to write 1K words/day) and then got up this morning hoping the tech people at work would be able to recover my lost document (they couldn’t). First I stopped at the African Burial Ground National Monument in order to participate in their Juneteenth events. I helped to read aloud the names of 1300 abolitionists and then went back outside to see some Civil War reenactors
representing the 26th United States Colored Troops. Judah encounters Union soldiers in this novel and so it was good to see an example of the uniforms, weapons, tent, and other supplies (including food) that African American soldiers would have used. By the time I got to work, I no longer had much hope that the lost document would be recovered. And you know what? It’s ok. I was on the verge of tears yesterday but today I know that in the grand scheme of things, losing a couple chapters of my novel isn’t a real hardship. Imagine those poor folks in Texas who should have been freed in 1863 but were kept in bondage for another two and a half years. They didn’t fuss and complain—they moved forward (and set up an annual party to remind them of their blessings). People suffered so much for me to be where I am today, to have the kind of life where I can dream about the past and write books that give voice to some of those who were unfairly silenced. So I will simply start over and visit the Mac store tomorrow to get the replacement laptop I should have bought a month ago…
Juneteenth
June 20, 2013 by elliottzetta
Wise words, Zetta, though I’m sorry about the tablet eating your work. (Tablets are known to do that, and the work is very hard to recover–that’s why they’re usually seen as good devices for consuming media but not for producing it.) You can get a MacBook Air, which is hardly larger and heavier than the iPad, and if it costs twice as much, you’re getting more than twice the hardware. Email me if you have questions or would like more suggestions.
Thanks, Lyn! I took a poll on Facebook and most of my friends recommended the Mac Air. I’ve been writing for a couple of hours and am surprised by how much of the lost work I remember. Lesson learned!